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Finding Love Without Loving Yourself First
Staring at my reflection in the darkened glass. It was the same face I saw every day, but tonight, it felt strange like I was looking at someone else.
A question kept coming back to me, refusing to leave: How can I be worthy of love if I can’t even love myself?
The Weight of Self-Doubt
This was not the first time I’d wondered about it. That doubt had been with me for years, creeping in during quiet moments. But tonight, it felt louder than ever, like a shadow of every harsh thought I’d ever had about myself.
I thought about all the times I pushed people away, telling myself they deserved better than the mess inside me. I thought about the moments I stood in front of the mirror, picking apart everything I saw. The things I said to myself then were words I’d never say to anyone else. Yet somehow, they felt justified when they were about me.
The rain outside grew heavier, mirroring the chaos I felt within.
Do We Have to Earn Love?
Is love something you have to earn? The thought appeared out of nowhere, like a voice scolding me for not being good enough. Over the years, I’d started to believe love was a reward for being perfect. But where did that idea come from? Who taught me that being…